changes

so a lot of changes have happened in the last few weeks. the best of which are that i now have 2 summer jobs! and one of them is working for Bank of America :-D that was the job that i really wanted. i am getting paid more than i ever have before, which really isn't sayin' much, but hey... i'll take it! my other job is working with developmentally disabled youth from the ages of 12 - 18. they live in a group home and art typically wards of the state. when they are home from school there are at least 5 staff members there. we teach them skills on how to go grocery shopping, basic hygiene and things like that. i am going to try to keep my saturday job too if at all possible. i just hope that i will actually be able to have a summer!

other changes involve relationships...talk about confusing! some of you know what i am talking about. a guy kinda popped into my life a few weeks ago, and took a fancy to me. i started to like him, but things just went way too fast. i have only known him for 2-3 weeks and don't really feel like there is even much of a friendship there to base a romantic relationship on. he is a sweet guy and says i am someone who he can picture himself growing to love. he is a business/finance major at OSU and is in the Army ROTC. just a week after i met him his dad was hospitalized and they dont know what caused the coma that he has been in ever since. just today jeff (the guy) found out that the brain tests came back and are not good at all. his dad has not improved and they will probably pull the plug. i know that right now he needs a friend more than ever, and i want to be there for him...but i don't want him to get the wrong impression. now seems like a horrible time to tell him that i don't like him in the same way that he likes me! i just had to tell another guy that last month, and it crushed him! i don't want to do that again! why can't God just make us only be attracted to the person we are supposed to marry? life would just be soooooooo much simpler!

then there is my roommate situation. little things have become big things, and misunderstandings and not enough communication have taken their toll. I don't know if we will be rooming together next year, and am not too sure where i can go. who knows, maybe we can work things out. i just dont want the tension that we kinda have now. it is no fun to live with. i have lived in a place full on tension and stress for too many years already!

well there is my life in a nut shell. i should go study for finals and get some projects done!